The waiting is over and I wish Bill were still here

Yes, I got an answer today from the Certified Language company about my Language Proficiency test...out of a passing 80%, I got 77...so close, yet so far away. I was bummed, but not too bad. THEN...
I got a phone call from my son Will, telling me that due to the fact he was going to have to "evict" a roommate his income from rent would go down, therefore he wouldn't be able to pay his bills in time to move here in February...I was sort of ok with that one...but then when I was IM-ing to my daughter,Joy, and my good friend, Michele and shared with them the reason Will was going to have to take a stand...I won't go into to detail..but it has to do with the sort of weed that you don't see normally growing in your yard being used by renter/roommate......
I was so proud of him..he's only 24 and that showed real maturity. The thought fleetingly passed through my mind (but I let in come in and out as I didn't want to dwell) of how proud his daddy would be of him. I was ok, until one of my IM-buddies actually wrote what had come and gone..and I lost it. I've been doing pretty good...it's been a year and 1/2 since Bill died, but ever so often the I think that I can't make it... I just thought... man...if only Bill were here to rejoice in the fruit of our labor together of trying to raise our children to do the right thing..and then if only he were here to comfort me about the almost passing grade and it just overwhelmed me once again. Heaven just somehow seems sweeter and more desirable now...but I know it's so true what Bill said until he couldn't speak anymore...GOD HAS A PLAN.
I still say being a widow isn't the funnest thing in the world

Waitng for the phone to ring....

Man..I can remember when I used to wait for the phone to ring while I was in Texas and HE was in Florida...those were the days. Well, now I'm waiting on Certified Languages to call me to let me know if I passed their language proficiency test and therefore will be qualified to be one of their over the phone English/Spanish Interpreters...I think the seconds are getting longer each minute or something...I know we are going into the fall and the days are "supposed" to be getting shorter..but something has happened here in my home to my clocks..the are just taking their "merry time" as I impatiently wait....so I'm just trying to fill in the time here....
Thanks to you all out there for your prayers and encouragement to me.